Todays adventure

November 15, 2019
It has taken me months of exploring upgrades on my old Power tower cheese grater computer and today I found a way to load El Capitan which took most of the day. One of the macuser groups posted a link that didn’t work for me but led me down a dark path that exposed daylight in my search. Can I tell you how I did it? I am not sure because Apple has hidden how to download El Capitan because they want you to buy new, even if they give it away free. I had to buy Mavericks on eBay then explore how to upgrade to El Capitan rather unsuccessfully for months. But today I was a lucky now Safari works much better. Still Adobe Photoshop CS 6 is kaput because of Adobe action but I have CS 4 working but not the upgrade to CS 6 which I bought quite awhile ago. But some jerks posted the activation code on a free site and Adobe closed the code. Speaking with customer service, which is in INDIA I get nowhere. I guess it’s time to write to Adobe CEO and TECH VP maybe that will help. It worked with Canon repair problems I was having and I got my own, well maybe not my own, but it was a direct link to my free repair. I thought that was nice. I did buy a new camera which is my last one, I’ve sold my Hasselblad and given away some other stuff. But I still have way too much laying around. Maybe someday.
I did manage to solve todays problem after months of trying so it was a good day. Maybe other wonderful things are in store. Ya never know. Remember just keep trying .

A new beginning to an old life

October 26, 2019

Ok here it is Saturday and what have I done ? Years ago I started the day listening to a NJ collage radio station playing a Allen Watts teaching series tape. Today I listened to a Ram Dass CD teaching session.Hummmmm

Allen Watts started me on a long journey to find the lost little boy I had become. It’s not easy touching the elusive truth nor facing reality. I still have a hard remembering who I want to be or was.

I’ve decided since Facebook and Mark Zuckerberg are such creeps that I would write personal stuff on my Fuzzypictures web blog. It began by me posting my pictures but since I am not doing that right now I thought I post some remembrances of my life for a few chuckles. That way Zuckerberg won’t profit from my ramblings or know more about me.

A waste of time probably but at least I can listen to my breath while typing. Maybe some positive vibes or connections will appear. What else is there but to sit here listening to my breathing and not let my silly mind keep wandering distracting my breathing and listening. Silly mind takes the cake.

A lost adventure or moving on.

July 17, 2018

I’ve not been shooting much these days for various reasons, one having to do with lack of creative ideas, the other is my health. I just struggle some days to just get out bed, pain is exhausting. Then there the daily news feed about our glorious leader who because of his horrendous acts against humanity the press has to print his every outrageous word. The man is a con artist leading his family of crooks across our precious land raping and pillaging leaving only piles of burnt money .

But I digress from what I wanted to say today. My wife was using the house to update a friends portfolio. I do have a system off separating my used card in stacks then I edit out the bad ones and put the cards in a plastic bag so I have some idea what to reformat and use again.

Mary picked up a disk and saw that there were images on it and asked me about. I realized what with every thing else going on I hadn’t gone through this stack. I gave her an empty one from the plastic bag.

This young woman asked me to shoot some Shibari images of her. I saw she had some Yogi pictures in her portfolio so I’ve wanted some of that in my portfolio and said yes. She arrived and had this beautiful energy open to about anything. I turned on some lights and off we go


She found a T shirt in my closet and brought it too me and I said why don’t we cut it up with a razor. Yes. I always like to give people a prop and some directions if need be which helps relax them so this is a start.


We shot a few images with this T shirt but the best of the lot is the first one here I think


We also found this satin outfit and some cord rummaging around and Raylinn put this on which I think turned out lovely


Some details of the outfit.


She kept inventing ideas off this camisole and silver cord.


Then she pulled the camisole down. Most of these images are her posing without too much direction.


Raylinn seems to be a natural model, at least for this genre and very flexible


The lighting was all wrong for the Yogi shoot so I moved the couch in front of the black paper while she played with a hank of hemp.


Kiss ‘keep it simple’ one light coming from the left and she played with it


better than some models I’ve shot with. What makes a professional model professional?


All I had to do was pull the trigger and a bit of editing here and there


she knew where her audience was


This turned out to be a lot of fun


She had to run, probably to another shoot so we never got to see any images together


but we made another date to shoot some more and show and go thru her images. After all this creation was partly hers, as I said all I did was turn on the lights and press the  thingamajig on the camera.

I had to cancel that shoot but we texted each other saying yes she wanted to work again but I never heard from her again. One of her Model Mayhem portfolios disappeared in a puff of smoke. I again texted her asking if she was alright again but no answer.

Some things disappear vanish into thin air. A mystery leaving behind a few pixels as proof, proof of what? Are these moments reality I am never sure. I had forgotten about these images but now they are here.

What I found out later is she’s decided to go in and entirely different direction trying Fashion instead of art nudes. That’s fine with me but she could have said that to me. Then I would have understood, it’s no skin off my nose.

She does have two Model Mayhem sites for art/nude and another for fashion

We all have to eat and we can choose whom to sit with.


Darkness returns

March 3, 2017

Someone asked me if i’d be interested in working with her putting together her portfolio so we swapped the body painting which I wrote about earlier here for a session of these darker images. I really love creating, I really think it’s a disease, but I like it.


Woman with flogger


Blue fan with white flowers

This model is quirky as I never know if and when I’ll see or hear from her. It’s not that I am paying her for her time she asked me if I wouldn’t mind shoot some images for her web site. We all have our own lives and things go on that we have no control over. She’s been pretty understanding, after all she put up with me pouring paint on her body and then taking I guess 4 or 6 showers to clean up.

I know she’s in school and has a job and just trying to start up a business so it’s time for me to be a little understanding.

I do enjoy working with her because she has a playful side of her that comes out, life isn’t all that serious. I should talk having two stomach ulcers but what’s parenthood for?


Black leather top

I enjoy spending time with her creating,  but with digital since I throw most of the lousy pictures away I don’t worry about cost. We do go over her proofs, likes and dislikes, then I add mine.


Let me look at you

And we move on.


and on


Lady of the night

She is a Dominate woman so some of these outfits are geared towards that lifestyle. I really don’t care so much about what people do for pleasure as long as they treat me well.


Look what I’ve got for you

Some of the images I edit I fool around with colors etc, or I just play with levels as this one


We both like this outfit  and I think it works better I color than B&W



Tell mother how bad you’ve been

I played with NIK silver software on this image, I think this turned out a bit different than plain old B&W.


Powerful pose but just one man’s opinion. At least I don’t have to edit 2000 pictures like someone I know.


I wonder what she keeps in the bag?



these last two images I love especially the last one.


Yes they are black lace panties

I think this image below typifies what I think our acting boy child President needs.


Come here Donny mommy has something for you.

So what happens in these sessions is we begin talking, dressing,  shooting. Lets try this, oh could we do this and so on until either one of tires out usually it’s me. It’s not brain surgery just a couple of people having fun creating a play world. This time I checked my shutter speed, live and learn.



Grey day play

December 12, 2016

Be forewarned there is female nudity here so if it offends you leave before viewing.

The other day a traveling model from Model mayhem recontacted me about shooting together and this has been a slow month maybe even longer than a month since shooting and I liked a couple of her portfolio pictures and I though, why not? I just had a cancelation on another shoot and I was ready. I do get excited about shoots even a headshot, my wife describes this as nervous but I think of it as anticipation which I think we artists all share. Will I be good enough, will what ever I am planing work, will people laugh at me? They have. Taking photos isn’t a life and death situation unless it is.

As you can read latter in this post how I screwed up during this session. Oh well.

Zi rang my bell 7 minutes before the arranged time, that’s a positive sign which means she’s professional and a smart lady even caught some type o’s in my model release, cool. We talked about makeup well lipstick color which she applied while I pulled down the paper. Then we looked through some clothes I had and made a pile to try.


Beginning with this jacket I don’t remember having, it’s nice to discover something new. I really didn’t need to direct her because she would go from pose after hearing the click of the shutter. I see I should have fixed her face as it looks rough in this pose. I do try and make women look nice, must be something I got from my mother.


Since the lighting is mostly set up I usually turn on and turn off units as needed. Which gets boring and I keep telling myself I need to  get out of this rut. But here I go again.


I don’t think she ever said no to anything I suggested. A lovely pleasant young woman easy to work with.




She did most of the work all I did was plug and unplug things and push the shutter. She had some Shibari rope work in her portfolio and I had asked her if she was up for it. ‘Sure’. She has her own rigger which is a bit intimidating to me the beginner.


This is what I came up with her. I’ve always wanted to do a braided tie like this, I don ‘t know the names these ties but go on the visual effect


not too bold but interesting for just one rope length.There feels as something is incomplete with this tie as it goes around the waist with no beginning nor end. Is there ever?


we tried on the different clothes again. Someone had given me this headdress awhile ago but never found the opportunity I think it works here.


We talked during the shoot to loose the Voyeuristic quality of the moments and to become human beings and not objects. I guess Zi would be called a ‘rope bunny’ which is what women are called who enjoy the freedom of being bound.


Zi has a boyfriend and a different rope play partner/rigger receiving different needs from both. Working with these women is so insightful for me from the first woman who said she enjoyed being tied up. That surprised me somewhat as we had never talked about that before. But the more I learn the more I know.


That there is a freedom and delicacy in not being in charge. Hell I get that feeling of not being in charge when ever I go to work at the Beacon as soon as I leave the house.


At some point in time I accidentally moved the sync shutter speed out of sync with the flash units, going up to 250 from Canon 200. Check, check, check remember to take off lens cap.Check shutter speeds.

As you can see here the right side of the above picture is dark because stupid me didn’t check the shutter speed as I had moved it off the sync speed. Imagine my chagrin when looking at them in bridge.Sometimes I shoot bigger thinking I will crop latter but then I get so involved I forget, oops.So a few didn’t make the HD.


This one only the chair is darker so no big deal


But most of this series on the rug is trash as you can see below.Ugh



I am glad someone wasn’t paying me for this shoot. All though I did pull something out of this but nothing is perfect. Oh well.



These below I managed to save  because of cropping


Sometimes you win, sometimes you loose. What I was trying to do here is show off this lovely woman who had worked so hard for me.


It wasn’t an unproductive afternoon for neither of us. I learned an important part of photography check, check, check everything. I always say it not quantity but quality


so if I only get a few pictures I can use fine. This afternoon I connected with another human being and made a few enjoyable pictures. _mg_3619

So this is all I have to share today. I hope my few readers enjoy my efforts. At least two of us walked away with something we came for.Then as planned I took a nap.


Playing around with a new phase

November 7, 2016

It seems as if I’ve forgotten things I knew just a few moments ago. My computer is going wacky on me and every time I think it’s fixed out it goes. Even logging into fuzzy was a challenge trying to connect with a model via home I got a message call back later.

But the new phase is exploring how a liquid medium flows across a solid body, seems simple enough. But things don’t always go the way you envision them.

model in red

model in red

But when you’re just fooling around what ever you get is fun. This picture shows the whole set up having her set on a black covered bench against black backdrop. The clean up was done on her taking a shower between colors and cleaning the floor and blending in CS PS6.


We were alone and we would set her position  I poured the paint then grabbed the camera and shot a few pictures. Then off to the shower to wash her off while I cleaned off the set.

Some colors worked better than others or we were getting into it more.


Golden back

Golden back



golden streaks

golden streaks

















As I said sometimes it works, sometimes not but if one has to have someone fun to work with why not.




front view

front view proud lady
















I think this is one of my favorite shots

Portrait of a nude

Portrait of a nude

Laura didn’t need much direction and if I didn’t cut off her head feet and arms I thought we were doing pretty good.

Pink lady

Pink lady






This is an odd color for me but she had fun with it.

look what happens if I do this

look what happens if I do this














or this classic look


Off to the showers
















What's she thinking?

What’s she thinking?












sensual woman

sensual woman, showing everything revealing nothing














Time to put the house back in order enough fun for the day.


Tattoo and Shibari/Kinbaku experience

October 5, 2016

The other day a Model Mayhem male model contacted me about shooting some Time For Pictures shoot. His only request is that his face not be recognizable. They don’t call me Fuzzypictures for nothing, sure I am up for it.

For those who don’t know what Shibari is It’s an ancient Japanese art form developed during the Samari time for bonding their prisoners with rope. It is also referred to as the art of Kinbaku a sensual provocative form of Japanese erotic bondage now becoming popular in America.

That day and still today my flash receivers were acting wooky. Sometimes they worked sometimes not, so exposure was all over the place and I had a lot of over exposed throw aways along with some surprises.

I’ve wanted to add some spooky Images to Peau magazine for the autumn issue sort of as a theme and thought the tattoo’s might do the trick. Who knows what works and what doesn’t?

Tattooed male grasping his head and shoulders.

Dark Zen


Dark Zen

I haven’t gotten around to trying to adjust the over exposed images yet and maybe I won’t it’s a lot of work finding interesting people and shooting them then selecting images we both like.


Dark Zen

We chatted about our likes and dislikes but I never asked him the story of why so many tattoo’s. We did exchange information about who some of the tattoo artists were both his and mine where done as I shot.


Darkk Zen

If I don’t know and like the person ‘I am out of there.’ I am way too old to be uncomfortable anymore, been there done that. My work is about collaboration with the model around a theme, if there is one, I couldn’t do this type of photography without the model having ‘some chops’ as they say in jazz.


Dark Zen

I need to fix those strobes but this White Lightning 1200 Ultra keeps on kicking, I’ve only two left out of four but what a light.I didn’t need to give him much if any direction as he does this out of love also. I did show him images as we went along so he had an idea of what I was shooting.


Bamboo pole

We fooled around with this pole for awhile but it didn’t do anything for me not that we didn’t get some interesting shots of his hands holding the pole but I wanted some more so ‘Hey lets try this’ my favorite saying.


Prisoner of the dark  



I am reading a book called The Beauty of Kinbaku a history of the art and artists which got me thinking about what’s Japanese and one of the first think that comes to mind is Bamboo, so I go down to the flower district and find some. Who knew there was a vicious spider living in them and bit me on the elbow while I napped. Yeow some poison I sprayed the whole lot. I don’t like to kill spiders but he attacked me first.


Dark Zen

Well I’ve saved the best for last, although they were the first images we shot we both loved all of these but the first images blew me away. I looked at them and said ‘that’s it.’ I am not sure I could have planed them any better.


Dark Zen naked

But wait there is more, our first picture below.


What am I holding?

Yep that Ultra 1200 is something. This is from one of our first images sets. See I couldn’t do this without someone aware of the creative process.









Standing rock North Dakota

September 18, 2016

Sitting here waiting for my honey to come into city so we can go to a photo shoot of some aerial circus performers tonight but thinking about what’s going on in the world.

Listening to native american music playing in the background I though I’d repost some of the pow wow pictures of native American dancers dancing, some friendsfriends-0597

Top: friends we met at Eastern Cherokee Pow Wow below: assorted dancers.







Corn Husk woman historian


Below are from a Labor day PowWow on eastern Long Island 69th Shinnecock Annual Powwow






A old dag spectator from WW II




not much to say other than me not understanding why we need to desecrate the Earth we live on. Native Americans enjoy dancing on it. Why don’t we?

There is always something else

September 9, 2016

to do. There was a time I had plenty of time to write here but now so many dangling projects. Finally got the summer issue of Peau magazine is on it’s way, see link

Of course a model asked me for a digital tear sheet and I spent days looking up how to do to no avail, nothing. Just now it occurred to me maybe she wanted a ‘screen shot’ of the Peau pages. Life is full of difficult question made more by how the question is phrased.

But persistence always pays off somehow. My wife is turning into a very creative photographer I am impressed with her creativity see She has found her niche at least with the underwater photography and climate change.

Me after publishing the summer Issue of Peau magazine I am drained yet it’s time to start again as I have a theme Halloween. I really haven’t up dated my web site at Photoshelter in months.

I started the day wearing my Occupy Wall Street t-shirt and listening to native american tapes I’ve collected along the way. Doing laundry moved to listening to Phantom of the Opera just to get my blood moving. Now it’s Man of La Manch.

The other day a french model Byuruka Heck contacted me about shooting together when she was in town. Hey why not I’ve been in front of a computer for weeks. To say nothing of home projects.

So we began doing shoots and talking she wanted some fashion images
but the latex dress didn’t cooperate with the shoes.


Latex dress


fishnet stockings


I am not sure about that

She did fit into the Peau magazine tattooed look.




I asked about this tattoo she explained it was about birth and death and she had designed it herself.


sitting nude

As we talked I suggested trying some body paint ideas I’e been thinking about. Sure.


silver paint on nude female

This isn’t an easy technique as I need to mix each batch them pour it never knowing where it will go.


Silver pain on naked boob


Silver paint on female nude

This can be messy an disappointing at the same time. But that’s the exciting part of it, you never know what will happen, except a shower afterwards.

I want to do more of this as I learn something each time.Till next time





Dancing, it’s been long, long time

August 2, 2016

since i’ve had a chance to visit here. I’ve been involved learning IDesign and how to publish a fine Art magazine called Peau magazine, landscape of skin. So far we’ve managed to get out two issues with some great photographers and artist.

The first issue link here and the second issue here  I surprised myself by the quality of artist and photographers I was able to find. Some like Jack Cutler and Michael McGowan I’ve know for years but the new people are amazing in their own right. Rickard Unge in Stockholm Sweden works with male dancers while Jeffery Fletcher works with film and pond water.

The next issue I have a pinhole photographer. Some really amazing stuff.

I met a young Japanese female dancer whom I liked because of her model mayhem portfolio named Humeuchi. She invited us to a performance she was doing in Madison  park which was interesting and we talked afterward.

We arranged a quick shoot in my studio just to meet and learn about each other. She surprised me by having real Japanese Kimonos. I like to work with cloth and dancers, they just seem to go together. We looked over all the different clothes and she picked an old torn rag we had designed for another dance. WTF?


I told her the story play was a play on Adam & Eve and Mother Earth which I believe more than some other creation stories. Once there is a woman, or was she a tree, alone in the world and one day she imagined having something interesting to watch. So she created Adam and what a mess that has caused.


She had limbs of a tree and breast of a woman to nourish.


This was Humeuchi  choice of costumes too begin with although in her email she said she wanted to do nudes which surprised me but in these she had a bra and panties. But she had brought some wonderful Kimono’s I was dying to shoot.


Dancers have a natural line about their bodies and this stunning red fabric, you had to be there to really appreciate it’s intenesy, along with her poses make my day easy. Push click wham.

Working with Humeuchi made me slow down as her movements were very slow and precise. I know a guy with a camera who shoots thousands of pictures during a shoot hoping to get something. Yes he does but you fall asleep or eyes glaze over before you get to see them in edit.


The wonderful thing Humeuchi brought to this shoot was her culture, clothing and finally trust. All I had was some old strobe lighting, space with backdrop and an old camera. Of course I am pretty old myself.




This Kimono was absolutely lovely. I remember Mary and I wandering around Tokyo looking in shop windows and department stores looking for gifts to bring back home with us. These were out of our price range but how special they must make you feel.


Below is my favorite of the shoot but Humeuchi picked a whole different outfit and pose.


This white dress below is actually a night grown and she wanted to play with a mask, people can be so different under masks. I had showed her one of the ones I had brought back from Venice Italy but this is one she picked.


As you can see she is getting more comfortable in the shoot and I am changing the lighting every few shots.


And she is changing masks. I am not fond of what this light is doing to her body casting ugly shadows But when she disrobed and we started doing nudes I was so unhappy I won’t show them. Was it because I was tired? Don’t know but I felt like such a jerk. So I’ll end this post with one last one.


Good night all and sweet dreams.


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